8-27-2010: REALLY back under construction. (Health stuff I thought had stopped interfering with life had not, blahblah, but I now think it actually has.)

I am working on getting things going on this site again, as I’m hoping for a return to private computer access and undisturbed stretches of time sometime in the next month. in the next week.

11-24-10: So, I returned to my beloved home computer to discover it had passed away in my absence. (Actually, there’s just something wrong with/about the IMOS that is way over my non-tech head.) So I cannot get at anything that is on that computer, or be online from home, until I get the computer fixed. Should happen sometime very soon. In the meantime, I am not making any more predictions about when I’ll have new material up, in the hopes of not jinxing myself this time.

I’m not doing one huge update, but will make the new stories (and the continuation of the type-ups of the Random Fandoms and Drabble-icious notebook stories) available as soon as each section is complete.

Once again, thanks to those who have been so encouraging, special love to Starpollen for being one of the best people I’ve ever met, within the writing world and out of it, and guys, remember to drop encouraging words when you enjoy the stories and art of the people I’m hosting.

Love to all.

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I’m still building this site! I’ve gotten a lot done in a short time, but there’s a LOT left to do, just in getting up the material I already have.

There are links to nowhere, but I try to mark them all properly. They SHOULD all be clearly indicated, but if I make a mistake and you get a password-protected page, that means “Coming Soon.” (Actually, it means I went ahead and linked it for my convenience and as an attempt to guilt myself into hurrying up with it. ;] ) As far as I can tell, the pages and links that are up are all working properly, and the stories are all showing up in the right Category listings.

I’ve got a massive amount of content to add, which may be interrupted by sudden attacks of new inspiration. Any preferences? Give me a vote in Additions. :]

The “Individual Pages” listing will come and go at random, because I don’t actually want it in the sidebar, but I stick it there when I’m working on the site because it helps me keep track of what I’m doing.

If anyone has any trouble, please tell me about it right here!

(I’m currently seriously freaked that the WordPress spellcheck messes up the text formatting. O.o I ran it on most of the pages, and then had to go back and disconnect words that wereleftruntogetherlikethis all over the place. If I’ve missed any and you happen to notice them, I’d really appreciate you dropping me a note wherever you like.)

There’s a lot yet to be done, and most of it’s probably going to take a while. (Alas, no one will pay me to sit here and work on this all day.) But I hope anyone looking around enjoys, and I hope you’ll let me know what you think of my stories, and especially to leave a positive word for the people I’m hosting. This is just for fun, so it’s powered by enthusiasm. :]

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     Recent Additions 

 
11-1: Drabble-icious: Well, first, it exists where people can see it now. It has one 18+ HP scene, one unfinished SG-1 fic in total, and one unfinished SG-1 fic, only partially typed up. It’s the only notebook I have with me! So you get that. There is MUCH of it, but not quite to the 18+ part yet. 
10-26: Gallery : Two new pics in the Sfyr section, 25th Anniversary by Chui, color by Marta, and a color pencil drawing by Crantzling.
10-7: Random Fandoms: Let Me Show You - Part 4 is up (18+.)
10-5: Gallery : New Addition! Five Sfyr pictures and one Star Trek by four different artists. Le tthem know what you think!
10-1: Aria’s Story Listing : The page is up, with three Star Trek Reboot stories already linked!
9-14: Daylight Starr’s Page : Evening Conversation and A Touch of Home are up!
9-13: Daylight Starr’s Page : Vulcan Pride and Human Logic Parts 1 & 2 are up!
9-12: Daylight Starr’s Page : A Minor Inconvenience is up! Her page is up, and the first story linked!
9-11 : Shane’s Story Listing : Robbed is up!
9-6 : Shane’s Story Listing : Third Person, Singular is up!
Her page is up, and the first story is linked!
8-21 : Random Fandoms : Leave to Care – Part IV (18+) is up.
7-19 : New insanity in The what?god is love. Carebear visuals. O.o
7-19 : MBTM I-V rewrite is up! I just wasn’t happy with it, especially the last bit, so I gave it an overhaul.
7-6 : Exploration and Alchemy II – Part 2 is up!
6-29 : Greenstick Fractures VIII is up!
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Let me know what you think? I have way too much of this stuff. What should I do next?

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 To Come
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11-24-10: So, I returned to my beloved home computer to discover it had passed away in my absence. (Actually, there’s just something wrong with/about the IMOS that is way over my non-tech head.) So I cannot get at anything that is on that computer, or be online from home, until I get the computer fixed. Should happen sometime very soon. In the meantime, I am not making any more predictions about when I’ll have new material up, in the hopes of not jinxing myself this time.

8-27-2010 : Actually back this time, all plans still the same (oni, you are the most patient human being alive.) <3

6-6-2010 :  I’ll be returning in the next few weeks. In order, I will be posting a Star Trek gift-fic for oni(as was), the next part of Must Break to Mend, the finished but unposted in-progress stuff on Random Fandoms, and in no particular order, but as I’m able, a new Hosted page for some of the incredibly talented Nermal’s stories. (geocities ate her page.)

Sorry for the long hiatus, and thanks to those who dropped notes to keep my spirits up. I’ve really missed you guys.

01-10: Thanks to everyone who voted! Please keep it up, it keeps me interested in this place! *g* Plus, it lets me know people are actually reading.

10-24: Okay, this is just a confession. I’ve been having some health problems the last few months, and haven’t managed to get anything useful done in any consistent way. I am not abandoning the in-progress stories or the transcription or the construction, but until further notice, I’m not even going to try to predict when what might get done. I hope you enjoy what’s already here, and please say something nice to the writers and artists when you enjoy their work. Thanks!

9-11 : Hosted Writers! Daylight Starr’s Page is under construction.
Also, Random Fandoms : Let Me Show You Part 4 will be accessible this  next weekend.  (Sorry, guys. Life keeps happening,)

9-04 : Hosted Writers! Shane’s Page! I’ve decided I want to provide easy access to my very favorite SF writers, so I’m going to be hosting a few people, setting up an individual page for them and their pick of their favorites from their own writing.  I’m going to take that one at a time, but I’m getting started! Gallery  :  I’m going to be setting up a page for the lovely things people have made for me to illustrate these stories.

8-28 : Random Fandoms : Let Me Show You Part 3 will be up this weekend. (I’ve been randomly typing it up, just need to get it tagged and up.) I’m also sort of working on the next sections of both MBTM VI and Greenstick Fractures IX- I just ran out of steam on those for a bit, I think, but they’ve kind of woken up in my mind again. As I keep saying – a lot of this stuff is just transcription, typing it up from a notebook, but the J/Z stuff is all being REwritten and changed, so it’s another deal. If the current vibe holds, they’ll be up by Monday. Soon.

7-30 : Random Fandoms : Leave to Care Part II will be up before the end of the week. (And life happened and I didn’t get it finished, and business trip ahoy. Next weekend, probably.) Ditto Part 2 of Let Me Show You. I was complaining to a friend today about how everything I try to put up turns out to be five times as long as I thought, and she petted me and told me what a surprise that WASN’T. Le sigh.

7-25 : Random Fandoms I’m working on getting a BTVS one shot three parter (wow, this was longer than I remembered!) and a Star Trek that’ll come in four parts up. I refuse to estimate how long it will take to transcribe because I am always wrong! But hopefully this weekend I’ll have part of it up.

7-13 : Yes! MBTM V! Tai hits Chicago! Oh, thank goodness! I got it all typed up, and it’s just waiting for a beta pass and will be available tomorrow! I’m going to stop biting off more than I can chew with my estimates

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What?God (5:04:19 PM): Hello. My name is () and I resent neurophysiology.

What?God (5:04:33 PM): I think I’m going to eat. *decisive*

Kate4SFF (5:04:40 PM): *hugs you while you wander off*

Kate4SFF (5:04:51 PM): Neurophysiology loves YOU.

What?god (5:04:58 PM): *hugbacks!* Ta to you, tiny one.

What?god (5:05:19 PM): No, it doesn’t. You always say that, and you’re always WRONG.

Kate4SFF (5:05:37 PM): I am NOT wrong. It is the love that dare not speak its name.

What?god (5:06:23 PM): ……………………………….

What?god (5:06:30 PM): Does that even WORK?

What?god (5:07:02 PM): You just took all the slasher fibers of my soul and perverted them. *sad*

Kate4SFF (5:07:06 PM): BWAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAA

What?god (5:07:18 PM): Now my soul is made of polyester.

Kate4SFF (5:07:18 PM): The CRACK, the beautiful CRACK!

What?god (5:07:45 PM): DO NOT SLASH ME WITH NEUROPHYSIOLOGY

What?god (5:07:59 PM): ESPECIALLY NOT IN A WAY WHERE NEITHER OF US HAS THE RIGHT ORGANS

What?god (5:08:11 PM): ALTHOUGH OF COURSE IN SOME WAYS NEUROPHYSIOLOGY HAS ALL THE ORGANS

What?god (5:08:18 PM): THE CAPS ARE TOTALLY INTENTIONAL

What?god (5:08:21 PM): I AM GOING TO EAT

Kate4SFF (5:09:57 PM): Late in the night, the door to the empty computer lab creaked open. The lights did not come on, but what the young woman was there for was more satisfying in darkness. She ran her hand sensually over that one spot that would bring her secret lover to life, and sighed as the light of her beloved bathed her face. To her eyes it came, rising before her, dark and complicated in the simple light, with patterns she longed to understand. In the lines of its being she could find the answers to all quesitons. She sighed, moved, as always, and let her fingers dance over all the little spots that communicated such meaning in their touch.

What?god (5:10:24 PM): YOU ARE WRONG IN THE HEAD.

Kate4SFF (5:10:36 PM): The click of keys and the sigh of breath was the only sound in the computer lab for a very long time, before a low, satisfied chiming from the computer speakers signaled her lover, too, was complete.

Kate4SFF (5:11:09 PM): I just cracekd myself up so hard I can’t breathe, so this is probably atrue fact. Bwahahaha

What?god (5:12:06 PM): YOU ARE THE DEFINITION OF ALL THAT IS WRONG IN THE HEAD

(AIM bounceage)

What?god (5:13:05 PM): Whoops. Where was I? Oh yeah, SO WRONG.

Kate4SFF (5:13:25 PM): *snicker*

What?god (5:13:36 PM): My frieeeeeeeeeeenhd, she is insaaaaaaaaaane.

Kate4SFF (5:13:46 PM): You started it with the twelve-steppage.

What?god (5:13:58 PM): Yes, you will snicker right until I write you a Jack/carebears epic.

What?god (5:14:07 PM): Okay, that was a lie.

Kate4SFF (5:14:13 PM): *ded now*

What?god (5:14:17 PM): Where was there twelve-steppage? o.O

Kate4SFF (5:14:42 PM): “My name is X and I Y” is the twelve-steppage. twelve-step program?

What?god (5:14:58 PM): Funny, funny child!

What?god (5:15:14 PM): It’s not just 12 steps, it’s Jerry Springer too…

What?god (5:15:19 PM): Well, thereabouts.

Kate4SFF (5:15:28 PM): Actually, the idea of Jack among the carebears is now a fever-dream I want to give someone who is not Zach, because it would kill him.

What?god (5:15:45 PM): It would kill ANYONE.

What?god (5:16:12 PM): Give it to Tai. Tai has committed many sins, she deserves it.

Kate4SFF (5:16:09 PM): No, no! Catch him at the right age in the right mood, and Jack among the carebears is ADORABLE.

What?god (5:16:41 PM): Yes, but I just said that with a / thrown in and that’s not a concept easily shaken off.

What?god (5:17:00 PM): So. Now you are traumatizing me with the fruits of my own brain. Way to go.

Kate4SFF (5:17:08 PM): *bows*

Kate4SFF (5:17:12 PM): Serves you right!

What?god (5:17:24 PM): Pbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbt

Kate4SFF (5:17:40 PM): Seriously, my lifelong virgin-except-for-his-marriage is not going anywhere near your /, with or without carebears.

What?god (5:18:07 PM): Yes, that is clearly the only logical objection…

What?god (5:18:28 PM): He is not slutty enough to sleep with care bears. Exactly.

Kate4SFF (5:18:50 PM): Not about the slutty!

Kate4SFF (5:19:23 PM): About the wrapping the mind around it. So there!

What?god (5:20:03 PM): …..In which case, again, clearly the stumbling stone would be the not-with-Zach part…

Kate4SFF (5:20:15 PM): Jack cannot even make brain space for your /, because it all ends in his mind with Zach lying on a beach blanket tasting like sea salt and wearing nothing but a tan and a smile.

Kate4SFF (5:20:28 PM): EXACTLY! You DO understand!

What?god (5:20:31 PM): Why am I attempting to reason with someone who just wrote a human/neurophysiology drabble?

What?god (5:20:42 PM): Awwwwwww!

What?god (5:20:43 PM): HEEEEEEEE.

Kate4SFF (5:20:46 PM): Because you think I’m cute?

What?god (5:20:56 PM): Have I, in fact, mentioned wrong in the head?

Kate4SFF (5:21:00 PM): You have. *solemn*

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There is nothing whatsoever, in fact, about this picture that doesn’t deeply disturb me. O.o

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( Okay, so I was looking through some old chat logs for something completely not-this. I have no IDEA what she was reading at the time that prompted this random, completely contextless outburst. :D )

what?god (06:00:34):  Oh, dear god. Zach would be a terrifying anger-management course.   

Kate4SFF(06:00:50):  HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE   

what?god (06:03:20) :   You get them Pavlov’d so that every time they start getting angry they end up with a stoned smile and a vague compulsion to vote for gay rights.

Kate4SFF(06:03:32):  YES!

Kate4SFF (06:03:37):  *loves you SOOOOOO*

Kate4SFF (06:03:44):  She gets my character, mommy!

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what?god(4:19:35 PM): Are people threatening to kill you for leaving Zach where he’s been when you stopped?

what?god(4:20:58 PM): If this scene’s this hard to polish, I mean, maybe you should jump ahead to collar dragging?

Kate4SFF (4:25:20 PM): Nah, this is working well, weaving things together very solidly. Can’t do that if I jump scenes. Also? Funny kid.

what?god(4:25:46 PM): Yes, jumping is bad. *hides kidverse*

Kate4SFF (4:26:09 PM): And I left Zach – being utterly cute, if sick (and drunk,) coming to check on Jack, and Jack bundling him off to bed, and there being snugglage and angsty thoughts and rest.

Kate4SFF (4:26:21 PM): *laugh* Jumping is not bad for world building. It is bad for a story.This I have discovered about myself.

what?god(4:26:56 PM): Awww! Okay, I thought he was still much more miserably sick.

Kate4SFF (4:27:14 PM): He was DRUNK. This trumps all things.

what?god (4:27:26 PM): Hee!

Kate4SFF (4:30:23 PM): (Removed quote from MBtM I- V, description of Zach in the doorway at the end, sick but looking less pained.)

Kate4SFF (4:30:31 PM): Nyahnyah you provoked spam.

what?god (4:31:02 PM): hee! Drunk!Zach.*backreads*

what?god (4:31:58 PM): ZACH GO TO BED YOU FOOL.

Kate4SFF (4:32:13 PM): What I spammed you was the last look at Zach they got, before cuddles ensued. Which, this is kind of a Yay! Alcoholic sleep makes it better, yay! thing that is probably a Bad Public Service Message, but whatever.

what?god(4:32:17 PM): *PUTS A MILLION BLANKETS ON ZACH AND HUGS HIM (NYAH NYAH YOU’RE TOO SICK TO KILL ME)*

Kate4SFF (4:32:24 PM): HEEEE!

what?god(4:33:14 PM): Funny kid! ‘getting your badly sick SO who’s running ragged trying to save the world because he CAN drunk: awesome idea!’

what?god(4:33:17 PM): that PSA?

Kate4SFF (4:33:19 PM): You so cute! I was thinking more “Seriously spiked hot toddies: cure for what ails you!” but I like yours better. Zach goes from there and leans on Jack, gets cuddles, and then Jack bundles him off to bed. *pets him*

what?god (4:33:32 PM): Awwwwww

Kate4SFF (4:33:40 PM): So, see, he was left well-cuddled in bed. So no one has yet called for my blood.

what?god (4:33:52 PM): Tick-tock

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“Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind.
Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.
With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of men.
I have wished to know why the stars shine.
Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.
This has been my life; I found it worth living.”
- Bertrand Russel

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This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being thoroughly worn out before you are thrown on the scrap heap; the being a force of nature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.
-George Bernard Shaw

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To live content with small means, to seek elegance rather than luxury, and refinement rather than fashion, to be worthy, not respectable, and wealthy, not rich, to study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly, to listen to stars and birds, to babes and sages, with open heart, to bear all cheerfully, do all bravely, await occasions, hurry never, in a word to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious, grow up through the common, this is to be my symphony.
- William Henry Channing

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 ”Oh, greatest of mass media, thank you for elevating emotion, reducing thought, and stifling imagination. Thank you for the artificiality of quick solutions and for the insidious manipulation of human desires for commercial purposes. This bowl of lukewarm tapioca represents my brain. I offer it in humble sacrifice. Bestow thy flickering light forever.”
-Calvin and Hobbes

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 There was a silly damn bird called a Phoenix back before Christ: every few hundred years he built a pyre and burned himself up. He must have been first cousin to Man. But every time he burnt himself up he sprang out of the ashes, he got himself born all over again. And it looks like we’re doing the same thing, over and over, but we’ve got one damn thing the Phoenix never had. We know the damn silly thing we just did. We know all the damn silly things we’ve done for a thousand years, and as long as we know that and always have it around where we can see it, some day we’ll stop making the goddam funeral pyres and jumping into the middle of them. We pick up a few more people that remember, every generation.
-Ray Bradbury, Fahrenheit 451

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We are the miracle of force and matter making itself over into imagination and will. Incredible. The Life Force experimenting with forms. You for one. Me for another. The Universe has shouted itself alive. We are one of the shouts.
- Ray Bradbury

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Human speech is like a cracked kettle on which we tap crude rhythms for bears to dance to, while we long to make music that will melt the stars.
-Gustave Flaubert, Madame Bovary (1857)

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With or without religion, you would have good people doing good things and evil people doing evil things. But for good people to do evil things, that takes religion.
-Steven Weinberg

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The greatest use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it.
– William James

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Who will tell whether one happy moment of love or the joy of breathing or walking on a bright morning and smelling the fresh air, is not worth all the suffering and effort which life implies.
~Erich Fromm

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I ask not for a lighter burden, but broader shoulders.
- Jewish Proverb

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 We are at the very beginning of time for the human race. It is not unreasonable that we grapple with problems. But there are tens of thousands of years in the future. Our responsibility is to do what we can, learn what we can, improve the solutions, and pass them on.
– Richard Feynman

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Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says “I’ll try again tomorrow.”
~Mary Anne Radmacher

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The most erroneous stories are those we think we know best – and therefore never scrutinize or question.
– Stephen Jay Gould

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“We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time.”
~T.S. Eliot

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You don’t have to burn books to destroy a culture. You just have to get people to stop reading them.
- Ray Bradbury

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The jails are full of one million non-readers. We can’t let it happen again. If you allow another generation to grow up to be 12 years old…. without the ability to read, write, and think, we’re sunk. If they can’t read, if they can’t write, if they can’t think, they become criminals. We’ve already lost two generations. Unless we teach reading intensely and completely in kindergarten and first grade, the whole civilization goes to hell.
-Ray Bradbury

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From now on I hope always to educate myself as best I can. But lacking this, in future I will relaxedly turn back to my secret mind to see what it has observed when I thought I was sitting this one out. We never sit anything out. We are cups, constantly and quietly being filled. The trick is knowing how to tip ourselves over and let the beautiful stuff out.
– Ray Bradbury

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Stuff your eyes with wonder. Live as if you’d drop dead in ten seconds. See the world. It’s more fantastic than any dream made up or paid for in factories.
– Ray Bradbury

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If you can’t read and write you can’t think. Your thoughts are dispersed if you don’t know how to read and write. You’ve got to be able to look at your thoughts on paper and discover what a fool you were. 
– Ray Bradbury

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That’s all for now. :]

Okay, so I’ve decided to host a few people here. I’ll be working on getting their pages up as they get their content ready. Each person will be linked from the menu to their own listing page, and all links from there will be to their stories. In other words, you’ll only find stories by these writers off their own pages. Only the Gallery is organized by content rather than artist.

I’m doing this for fun and play and good times. I’m not going to let it turn into a headache. This is entirely at a, “Toys, the beautiful toys” level. :]

I’m not taking submissions. I don’t mean to hurt anyone’s feelings, either, but guys – I am not a web designer. This is a first time thing for me, and I’m feeling my way along. I’m not trying to build an extensive community archive. Our community already has several of those, and I don’t have the time or the skill anyway.

This is a place to put my fiction of a certain very specific type, within a very narrow field to start with., and I’m hosting people that are in that same small box. Not everyone likes the blend of content that I do. For those of us who are still readers first, even when it comes to h/c-sf, I am hoping to put together a collection we’ll enjoy. So, I really am just putting things up here that appeal to my own particular tastes, and those of a few others like me.

If you’re just curious, this what I look for in a full-length fic :

- Character-based
- Relationship-focused, whether romantic or platonic
- A trackable plot
- A style developed enough to be accessible and engaging
- No glorification of non-consensuality or infidelity
- No gender, racial, or religious assumptions I find offensive

And that’s just to start. From there :

- A very particular kind of characters
- A very particular dynamic between them
- A very particular way the h/c/sf-yness is expressed
- A lack of issue-laden gender representations
- A lack of Othering of women or gay characters
- It rings my particular bells.

Seriously, that really is all it comes down to. There are a lot of wonderful writers out there who just don’t happen to punch my buttons. My interest in this type of fiction is not an insult to any of them. It’s MY INTEREST. That’s all. Feathers down.

I don’t at all mind people asking me about hosting, or for tips on how to set up a WP page of their own. (I’m no expert, but I’ll help if I can.) But this is the across-the-board explanation for why if my answer is that I don’t think we’re a good fit.

I hope you enjoy what you find here, and remember to tell these guys you like their work.